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Preface
00:58
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I woke up confused and lost
You made your fate, you had choices.
I begin to sink with the cost
You can't ignore, You can't avoid it
Adrift
Surface long enough to sink
There's parts of you you don't know yet
Breath by breath back from the brink
If you don't try you'll never know it
Adrift
and so i set myself adrift
and so i set myself adrift
and so I set myself adrift
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2. |
Leave Now
03:12
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Go back to the moment
feel frozen the same
hear the voice inside saying, leave now
over and over agin
you can hear it repeating
and it sounds like it's true
these moments are what you get through
It's a game of constricting
teasing there's hope
pleading forgiveness while threatening rope
throwing chairs and hitting
with rage in your voice
screaming, gaslighting
leaving only one choice.
Invite in the vampire, shut the door too late
There's no way out
without going down through the flames.
Tried honest compassion
tried trying again
Tried but it all lead to the same place
lead to the same place..
"If you have a bag packed secretly
and stashed, it's already time to go.
So, leave now. Leave now."
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3. |
Day by Day
02:47
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What I believe is what I will see
bending my future til it's on it's knees
what I fear in the rearview mirror..
as if running will protect me, at a pace I can't keep
It's painting my picture, framing the scene
finishing my sentence and blaming me.
It's sitting on my chest, pulling on my heart
sending panic to my bloodstream til I play the part.
Did I separate my body from my mind?
My mind is what I'm living through all of the time.
I'm riddled with confusion. I'm lost out at sea.
I'm torn in all directions hopelessly.
It's repeating like an echo until it's all i know.
Exhausted by the effort then dragged by the undertow.
Did I separate my body from my mind?
My mind is what I'm living through all of the time.
Am I hesitating or waiting to be wise?
What am I moving like stopping is a crime?
So it's day by day
til you find a way
take it day by day by day.
Day by day by day.
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4. |
You Are Not Alone
04:12
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Too tired to fight, no land in sight
Where's my soul on this long dark night
Upside down and salt and waves...
I am crashing and tumbling under again.
You are not alone
You are not alone
The stars on high, they stir you to the east.
No way to avoid the belly of the beast
Except to shout out
"Adjutor! Keep my head above!
I promise if I make it i'll be light and love."
You are not alone
You are not alone
You are not alone
You are not alone
You are not alone
You are not alone
You are not alone
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5. |
The Body
03:56
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It's ancient Art
between mind and heart
learned like the beasts
fight, flight, and freeze.
The body keeps
chemical memories
The body keeps
what you won't release.
It's ancient Art
to know where to start.
Pushed down to hide
all those tears inside.
The body speaks
when you get weak
It will lay you down
and turn you all around.
You can't hold it back forever
It will show itself somehow, some way.
It's modern Art
to fall apart
to trash the place
and blame Descartes.
The body knows what lies below
you try, you try, but you can't deny.
You can't hold it back forever.
It will
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6. |
Shame
02:51
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The shame of it
it tortured me
a private little hell
I lost myself
I got real small
and said I'd never tell.
How do I get out of it? Spiralling in the doom and gloom?
The life I live
it's no one else's,
I know it's just my own.
What I do with it?
A pilgrimage
to find I'm not alone.
My lonliness
it serves me well
like a scallop shell from home.
A journey stretched out
step by step
til I feel it in my bones.
How do I get out of it? Spiralling alone in a room
Thought I was done with it? Spiralling in the doom and gloom
Who's gonna save you if you don't save yourself
Who's gonna make you choose you, choose yourself
Who's gonna take you by the hand, understand
You've got to choose you, choose you, choose yourself
If I waited another day to be vulnerable and say
that's the last time I'll betray
When I get to choose
I will choose the truth.
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7. |
Adrift
04:46
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Adrift in doubt
questions about the way ahead
I was lost in the crashing waves
So I sat every day
June til May
Breathing
Perceiving
The hell I had made
a tragic parade
but if it's all a lie,
then who am I?
If we're all a part
then where do I start?
If we're light in the dark
an heir to the spark,
a role in the mystery of being...
I got sharp and aware
turned to prayer
started seeing
believing
in the signs and dreams
revealing things
truth and peace
stillness, release,
the love inside,
the stretching of time,
and then it all fell away...
There are things beyond words
but it in simplified terms
we've always known it's just hard to get there
without breaking things
and archetypal wings
but I bathed in light
and the grace of ancestors...
And they whispered
When you search you'll find a way
Every day, day by day
When you search you'll find a way
Every day, day by day
When you search you'll find a way
Every day, day by day
When you search you'll find a way
Every day, day by day
Day by day by day
Day by day by day
Day by day by day
Day by day by day
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8. |
Deconstructed
02:50
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When you're a long way from comfort
and the memory of home brings you pain
When you're lost on your way, child.
I'm never far away.
I'll leave for you the essence
of what I know to be true.
There's love and loss of it
and the rest is up to you.
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